I saw the consultant recently. He’s a gastroenterologist. And he’s pretty sure that the digestive problems I’ve been having are Crohn’s disease. But he wants to do a colonoscopy (last time was just a sigmoidoscopy) to check my colon fully.
I’m dreading it.
I’m not that bothered about the procedure itself, which will be on Thursday. It’s the diet beforehand that’s got me worried. I have to do a low fibre diet from three days beforehand. And for 24 hours before I have to starve myself.
I feel weak and dizzy if my dinner is just an hour or two late. So a whole day without food is going to make me feel terrible and there’s no way around it.
I need the colonoscopy. I need to know the full extent of what’s going on with my body. But I just wish I could skip forward in time for a week and have it over and done with.
And then there’s the diagnosis. Crohn’s disease. It’s treatable, which is better than my other illnesses (chronic fatigue syndrome, fibromyalgia, chronic migraines), but it’s still chronic. It’s something I’m going to have to live with for the rest of my life.
I had really been hoping it was just a temporary problem. Something they could quickly treat and it would all be over.
Crohn’s disease also affects other parts of the body besides the colon, and I’ve not fully looked into what it covers. But I’m scared.
Sorry it’s not a more hopeful happy post today, but I just needed to get my feelings out. Wish me luck with the colonoscopy!